Work in progress
This is turning into a battle between what I want and what I really need.
Because in the end, I need to make sure I’m happy. At the end of the day, I want to go to bed knowing that I’m actually doing what I want to do and not what somebody else wants me to. There have been too many times in the past where I have given up my personal happiness to ensure that others are happy. I think that it’s time to put myself first. I realize that everybody deserves to be happy and I’m starting to ask myself whether or not the way I am living my life today is letting me end each and every day with a feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment.
And thinking about this makes me think about all of the other things that have been occupying my mind for the past few months. I want to leave this world knowing that I did all I could to change it for the better. I’m figuring out ways to do that. My passion and my career.. how those two aspects can overlap or how I can balance each of those independently.
I know that money doesn’t equal happiness, but money will give me the opportunity to start something that has meaning. Financial stability also means that my parents will be able to live comfortably without worries. I just don’t ever want money to be a problem for my family because there are enough worries that they have to deal with on the daily.